kiss me on my forehead in front of your folks
sleep on a mattress on the floor
wake me up at 2 am, ‘k?’
‘yea’
‘i love you’
and fall back asleep
hold my hand in the backseat of your folks car
kiss me when they’re not looking
and when they are
wrap around me in your folks backyard
i’m in love with you, inches from my face
in the middle of sex i yell some euphamisim
i love you!! as my legs are over your shoulders
and i can’t see much through your hair
its longer than it used to be
your eureka moment, not mine
‘shit shit shit’
stripping the bed with the same haste you used on your cothes
you missed me so much, you’re so glad i’m here
you daydreamed, it was so hard
and i feel important, like a small gem you’d like to put on my finger
did you call her my alphabet nickname
did you wake her up at 2 am just to tell her
did you introduce her to your folks
i was trying my hardest not to look for a strand
of brown hair
in your new car
on your mattress
the bar where we got drunk with your friends
everyone was smoking and i got too drunk and i wanted to go home
she might've walked in, it was too much for me
and i was chugging a water because i promised i’d drive
we switched after i hit the curb and you laughed and i was so afraid you’d be mad at me
the tire was fine
we fought the entire ride home
arms crossed and stuttering and slurring
who knows what we said
i tried to have sex with you when we got home but you said you weren’t in the mood and i took that personally
i climbed ontop of you on the mattress on the floor and kissed you
and apologized and kissed you through your long hair over and over